Musings of an Unimportant Self

Yes, I finally got round to cleaning my messy little apartment. It's now sparkling clean, and I think Ares appreciates its cleanliness more than I do. I didn't like having a messy apartment with him around - I felt it was a bad environment for him. As of tomorrow I have a week's vacation time and so I booked a holiday in Greece. As you can tell by my profile picture I am a fan of it. Now, I know the political situation is pretty bad right now, hence I've decided to visit the islands instead of the mainland (although I might take a trip to the palace of Agamemnon). First stop is Ithaca and I'll be going right round to Rhodes. It will be great fun. My work colleague, Richard, will be taking care of my dog (he and his wife have a retriever already).

Work has been pretty good so far. Customers have been as they always have been - some polite others unbearably rude. My work colleagues and I made a bet to see who would create a Facebook account, and I was the first to do it. It took ages before anyone else actually took up the bet, and it ended with Richard and Wendy making one next. So, I now have a grand total of two friends on Facebook. Quite pleased with myself there.

Of course, there have been good days and bad days, but we get through these things, don't we? Readers, your suggestion for me to pack up and move...it was the best thing that ever happened to my miserable life and I have you to thank for it. You'll never know just how important that change was to my life. Thank you.

Until we meet again...after I come back from Greece.

Michael

I've been pretty busy lately. I've been working double shifts to get more money in, which means less days off, but enough time to take my dog for a nice, long walk every evening. He's growing pretty fast and I wonder just how massive he's going to be. Judging by the size of his paws...huge.

So yes, work. It's been busy, it's been hectic and more than a little chaotic, but I have to say that I have enjoyed every moment of it. I'm finding it a little bit easier to talk to people now, and so interacting with customers has improved, much to the relief of my boss who was fearing that he may have to let me go for poor communication. So yes, things seem to be looking up. Of course there are days where I feel dark and gloomy, as though there is no hope or point in life, but that's how it is and how this illness works - an illness I'm going to beat. My doctor tells me that my form of depression will take years, especially as counselling and phychologists don't work for me. However, I'm willing to put the effort in and my new companion has been a great help.

So yes, not much happening on this side of the screen, but who knows what lies around the corner.

Michael

Sounds like a rather dismal title. Promise you it's not as dark as it may sound. Moving to a new place, having a new apartment (no matter how messy and beat up) and knowing no one except myself (and that's untrue, I don't know myself) was the best thing I ever did. I have spent most of the past 11 or so days cleaning up in between shifts at work. Why? Well, there's a very good reaosn for that and I plan to show ou all right now...just look below.

My Black Alsation puppy!

I have never loved anything as much as I have loved this dog and I've had him what, two days? His name is Ares, after the Greek god of war (if you can't tell by my profile picture I quite like Ancient Greece) and he's incredibly friendly. Man, I love this dog. Best thing that ever happened to me. Without a doubt.

Well, he was the main thing I wanted to share with you all. The reason for the long road to recovery is my recovery from depression, something that I plan to get over and with a new start to life will. My forst step was to chuck the anti-depressants. You might think it a bad idea, but it was done and it's a huge help having nothing to take. I'm not going to lie, the road will be long and very, very hard, but I will get there in the end. I'm 21, I'm young. I can do this. Tomorrow, I'll probably be wallowing in self pity and feeling as though I'll never get forward, but today at least I'm feeling kinda positive.

Until we meet again, reader.

Michael

Here's a little update about life so far. I thought I'd add a couple of pictures in this so that you can see some of the stuff in my flat. One day I'll get nicer furniture, promise.

My dirty couch with a temporary rug that I picked up from the 99p store  

As for the rest of my apartment, it's relatively clean althought I have a lot of work to do...I really mean a lot. I give you a few other snapshots and let you take a look.

Kitchen! Not as messy as the rest of the house...

I don't have enough drawers, that's my excuse.